10-17-2013 Thursday

This year has been the roughest year we have had in a VERY VERY long time. The world seemed to fall apart for a lil while. I had a hysterectomy in May. My father-in-law went into the hospital for congestive heart failure in June and never really recovered. He passed away the 2nd of September. I had him as my 'Pops' longer than I had my own Dad. I can't believe how much I miss him. I couldn't have loved him any more than if he was my own.

At the same time it seemed like everything else was falling apart as well. Our vehicles (not just once, but over and over), our house got hit by lightening and took out our furnace and a few other things. My sister had a MAJOR surgery and got an infection, to the point of it being life threatening and ended up having 4 more surgeries because of it. All life threatening. For several weeks I had both my Pops and my sister in the hospital at the same time, both in serious condition (They were both in same town, different hospitals but both still 45 mins away from where we live)Everyday we drove there twice. Once to take my mother-in-law to the hospital then go back home to work, then go back that night after work to pick her up and see how he was doing. The last 4 weeks or so, one of us was with him 24/7 while we all continued to work our normal jobs. My daughter-in-law got laid off and a week later so did my son. UGH!!!!! In the midst of all this my lil brother and his wife decided to move 3 hours away from us. I'm VERY attached to him and his little girl. While I totally understand the reasoning, this about did me in. It was the straw that broke the camels back. I'm a mess. REALLY. I'm sure there is more I'm forgetting.

Anyway, I was the last person on that long list to take care of. And for much of it, I did not take care of myself. I need to get to a place that no matter what is happening in life, I should take care of ME, no matter how selfish it sounds. -sniff sniff

So today, I have made an attempt to go back to low carb. I'm doing this for myself. I feel like I have to. I feel so bad. I'm tired physically and mentally, I'm not sleeping well and I'm just exhausted. I'm sure some of this is depression. But I have to start stepping in the right direction or at least feel like I'm going the right way in taking care of me. SOOoooooo..


B- 2 cups coffee w/CO - HC
1 1/2 Walmart sausage patties w/PB SF syrup

L-Salad w/lettuce, onions, cheese, celery, few soy nuts, Walden Farms dressing
few pieces of string cheese
few pieces of beef stick bites
1 can diet coke

D-2 egg omelet w/sausage and cheese
5-6 slices bacon
SF Tea 

SN-shelled peanuts
1 c milk, 4 Oreo cookies, 1 SF Toffee

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B- 2 coffee with HC (200 cals/ 0 carbs)
1 walmart brand sausage (200 cals, 0 carbs)

Total for breakfast cals = 400 / carbs= 0

L-

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07-24-2013 Wednesday

B- 3 C Coffee w/HC CO
2 Sausage patties -plain

L- 1 Grilled Chicken patty w/french onion dip
small bowl Canalope chuncks
1 corn on the cob w/butter

D- not yet

Ok, I admit, I haven't been the greatest at eating or posting lately. I will try to do better.

07-16-2013 Tuesday

B- 2 coffee HC/CO 1 Walmart Sausage patty -plain

 L- Salad w/lettuce, spinach, cheese, bacon, onion and Ranch dressing 3 pickles, small amount of fruit cantaloupe, honey dew, pineapple 6 wheat crackers

SN - few slices block cheese, 1/4 pac budding meat, 2 russell stovers SF toffee


D- 3 hot dogs w/catchup, 6 ritz w butter, 1 cup milk

07-15-2013 Monday

B- 2 coffee w/HC CO
1 sausage -plain

L- 1 grilled chicken w/french onion dip

SN- 2 sm bags kettle core :( (260 cals, 41 carbs, 4 fiber), 2 spoons Peanut butter

D- Brussel sprouts fried in bacon greasew/ catchup
2 cheesy Polish sausase

SN- 2 russel stovers SF toffee, 6 Ritz w/butter, 1 cup milk

07-14-2013 Sunday

B- 2 coffee w/HC CO
1 sausage patty plain

L- Chicken terriki w/cabage
5 oz steak w/catchup
2 crab ragoons
4 sqs pineapple
few bites hubby ice cream

D- Small bowl french frie delight (10 fries/sour cream/ cheese/ onions )
hot dog with chili & onions -no bun

sn- 6 ritz w/butter, glass milk, 3 russel stovers SF toffees

07-13-2013 Saturday

Best Guess, I forgot to write it down.

B- 2 coffee w/HC CO

L- 2 hot dogs w/ catchup

D- 2 hot dogs w/ catchup
cucumber w/vinegar.

Sn- 3 Russel Stovers SF toffees, 6 ritz w/butter

07-12-2013 Friday

Best Guess I forgot to write it down. So much going on.

B- 2 coffee w/HC CO
1 sausage patty -plain

L- 1 grilled chicken patty w/french onion dip
1 cucumber w/Vinegar

D- 7 oz steak w/catchup
Salad w/Ranch
Applesauce

SN- 6 ritz w/butter and 1 glass milk :(

07-11-2013 Thursday

IS IT FRIDAY YET???? UGH!!!!


B- 2 c coffee w/HC CO
1 Walmart Sausage -plain

L- Salad w/ lettuce, spinach, cukes, celery, cheese, sunflower seeds, grilled chicken breast and Waldon Farms Dressing.

D- Magic noodles + zoodles w/ grilled chicken and Alfrado sauce

OMG!!!! So much going on around here. I'm a nervous, anxious wreck.
Still not sleeping. I know I'm worring too much but can't seem to shut it off. Worring about my Father in law and other things just keep going wrong. Truck and car both broke down. Brakes on Truck last night and fuel pump on the car today. Still talking about putting my FIL in the nursing home. Husbands family still doesn't help much with taxing MIL back and forth and other errands.

God does not give us more than we can handle.

I Corinthians 10:13
No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.

07-10-2013 Wednesday

B- 1 c coffee w/HC CO
1 Walmart Sausage patty plain

L- 1 cucumber w/vinegar
1 Grilled Chicken fillet w/french onion dip
Little watermelon (not much, didn't want to knock myself out of ketosis
2 crackers w/peanut butter (each cracker is 2 carbs each)

D- 4 hot dogs w/catchup
rest of tub of watermelon
med tomatoe

SN- SF jell-o w/cream
4 Russell Stovers SF Toffee
2 SF popcycles
few walnuts


Tired today. Leg cramps and my mind running overtime. Couldn't sleep. Hopefully I can get my shopping done tonight. I like being prepared. I think it is the key to eating this way.

07-09-2013 Tuesday

B- 2 c coffee w/HC CO
1 Walmart Sausage Patty w/1 teaspoon PB and Walden Farms Pancake Syrup

L- 1 Grilled Chicken Fillet w/French Onion Dip
1 Cucumber in Vinegar

SN- 3 celery sticks with cream cheese

D- 2 Rev Rolls
1 hamburger patty w/ cheese, mustard, catchup, pickles, onion
1 med home grown tomato

SN-3 Russel Stovers SF Toffee Squares, walnuts, SF Jell-o w/ Cream

Today I was 247 on my home scales. Slow but I will take it. :)

I've been feeling funny since yesterday. I'm having heart palpitations. I was low on potassium back in May when I had my hysterectomy. Maybe its low again. They also put me on an antibiotic Friday. So maybe that is it. Who knows. Its a lil later in the day and I feel better now. :)

Where on Earth is the spell check on here? UGH!!!!
ah-ha, found it. :) far right top corner.

07-08-13 Monday

B- 2 c coffee w/HC CO
1 Walmart sausage patty (plain)

L- 1 Rev. Roll
3 T. chicken salad
2 deviled egg halves

SN- 2 crackers w/ lil peanut butter (feeling shaky)

D- 2 Rev Rolls
1 hamburger patty w/ cheese, mustard, catchup, pickles, onion
1 cucumber in vinegar
1 small tomato (out of the garden, YUM!!)

SN- walnuts
1 SF Toffee Square

Oh my, tonight's dinner was SOOO good! 

07-07-13 Sunday (operation get organized)

B- 3 c coffee w/HC CO
1 Walmart sausage patty w/1 teaspoon PB and Walden Farms Pancake Syrup

L- * See below
3 bites Chicken salad
2 bites stuffing from devilled eggs

D- 1 Country style spare rib
1 T catsup
1/2 small bag of medley veggies
2 T. French onion dip

Sn- 1 tub SF Jello/whip cream
walnuts
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Ok, so today I'm declaring 'get organized' day.
I boiled up a dozen eggs, made 16 devilled egg halves (8 eggs)
I made Chicken Salad,  put 4 of the eggs in Chicken salad
I made 12 Revolutionary Rolls for burger buns etc.
Made up bags of Flax Pancakes.

In the Freezer I have homemade Spaghetti sauce made up and frozen into Gallon size zip lock bags. It already contains the cooked meat, onions and peppers.  Just have to add Bean sprout noodles, Spaghetti Squash noodles, Zoodles. 
I also have several Hamburger patties frozen ready to pop in the skillet to cook up.

This coming week I plan to have
Lunches
1. Chicken salad
2. Grilled Chicken Fillet w/French onion dip
3. Salad w/grilled chicken, cukes, cheese, sunflower seeds w/Walden Farm dressing
4. left over Spahetti
5. Chicken Salad

Dinners
1. Spaghetti with above noodles
2. Breakfast -Flax pancakes, sausage
3. Breakfast - Omelet w/Cheese & Celery
4. Cheeseburger on Rev. Roll / Green Bean Fries
5. Baked Pork steak w/cauliflower French onion dip
6. Breakfast - Loop Sausage w/ Scrambled eggs
7. Taco's (Maybe) ???
8. Hot dogs /Medley Vegs with Cheese Wiz (Fast easy meal) 

Lets see how well I stick with this. Notice I did not put what day I would have what, as I never know what I'm in the mood for. My Father-in-law is in the hospital so I hope having it all planned out will help.

04-05-2013 Friday

TGIF!!!!!!!!
I didn't sleep hardly at all last night. I was up and down, dreaming, dreaming, dreaming.

My brother got me some Florida Tomatos off the vine last night. OH MY Goodness was they ever good. I had bacon and tomato sandwiches for dinner. So I didn't stay on plan. :/ I still have two left.

I've done pretty good today. I haven't ate lunch yet ( it's 2pm). My stomach has been upset all day. Probably because I"m not used to the vine ripe tomatoes ;)

Blogger had changed. I can't find the spell check. Lord knows I can't live without it. :) Today the work scales said 257.4

04-04-2013 Thursday

Aha !!! I think I have found the reason I have been feeling so HUNGRY , starved actually. In attempt to cut calories I've been cutting FAT.

Today I have upped my fat intake. I will let you know how that worked. :)

04-03-2013 Tuesday

Hope to get back to posting menus.
I have been keeping track in a book.
Struggling right now to get it together.
I just can't seem to do it. I get up each morning, start out great, eat a good breakfast.  I eat a good lunch but I'm starved by the time I get home and usually blow it. Night time has always been a down fall for me. So I guess nothing new. :/

11-29-2012 Thursday

B- 2 coffee with HC (200 cals/ 0 carbs)
1 walmart brand sausage (200 cals, 0 carbs)
1 egg (72 cals / 1 carb)
1 oz Velveeta cheese (cals = 80 / carbs =3)
Total for breakfast cals = 552 / carbs=4

L-lettuce (20 cal/ 4 carbs, 1 fiber)
few cucumber slices( 10 cals/ 0 carbs),
1oz cheese (110 cals/ 1 carb)
1 grilled chicken breast (130 cals/ 0 carbs)
Walden farms ranch dressing(0. Cal/ 0 carbs)
1 cucumber in vinegar (cals = 15/ carbs=4 / 2 fiber)
20 oz water
Total for lunch cals = 285/ carbs =9/ Fiber = 3

D- 4 1/2 oz baked pork steak (194.5 cals / 0 carbs)
 1 T sweet baby rays BBQ sauce (35 cals / 8.5 carbs)
1 T catchup (20 cals/ 4 carbs)
1 can green beans (70 cals / 14 carbs/ 7 fiber)
 1 T butter (cals = 70 / carbs = 0)
 2 SF Toffee square (140 cals / 2 carbs)
Total for dinner cals =529.5 /carbs =28.5/ 7 fibers

SN- 1 c 2% milk (120 cals /11 carbs )
6 oval ritz  (108 cals/ 10.8 carbs)
1 T butter (cals = 70 / carbs = 0)

Total for the day cals =1664.5 / carbs = 63.3 / fibers =10 
net carbs = 53.3

I knew I was going to be in a busy clinic this morning. So I added a lil to my breakfast. I'm not sure when I will get to go to lunch so I hope this holds me over. ---Update, it did hold me over. I actually got out a lil early for lunch. O'well at least I was prepared.

Didn't feel as hungry today. I got a lil snacky toward the evening. But I only got 3 hrs sleep last night so I'm sure it was due to that.  

11-28-2012 Wednesday

B- 2 coffee with HC (200 cals/ 0 carbs)
1 walmart brand sausage patty (200 cals, 0 carbs)
Total for breakfast cals = 400 / carbs= 0


L-chicken breast fillet (130 cals/ 0 carbs)
1 T mayo (90 cals / 0 carbs)
1 can green beans (70 cals / 14 carbs/ 7 fiber)
Couple sprays of I can't believe its butter (0 cals / 0 carbs)
1 cucumber in vinegar (15 cals /4 carbs / 2 fiber)
1 tub of Light and FIt yogurt (80 cals / 15 (*2 net carbs )
20 oz water
10oz green tea w/2 AS
Total for lunch cals =305 / carbs =33/ fiber= 9 (11 net carbs)


SN- 1 cup buttermilk (110 cals/ carbs 14 (*4 net carbs))
1 string cheese (80 cals/ 1 carb)

D- 4 1/2 oz baked pork steak (194.5 cals / 0 carbs)
1 T sweet baby rays BBQ sauce (35 cals / 8.5 carbs)
1 T catchup (20 cals/ 4 carbs)
1 1/2 cups cauliflower ( 35 cals / 4 carbs / 2 fiber)
1 T butter (70 cals / 0 carbs)
1 T french onion dip( 35 cals / 3 carbs)
and a small handful of my hubbies French fries. :( Not many, but OH, they were so GOOD!!!!!( 120 cal/ 20 carbs / 2 fiber)
40 oz SF tea with lemon and AS
Total for dinner cals = 509.5 /carbs =39.5/ 4 fiber (*35.5 net carbs)


SN-2 SF Toffee square (140cals= / carbs= 2)
SF popcycle (30 cals/0 carbs)
6 saltines (72 cals /14.4 carbs)
1 c 2% milk (120 cals /11 carbs )
1 T butter (70 cals / 0 carbs)

Total for the day cals =1836.5  / carbs = 114.5*
 Net carbs=78.9

Not my best carb/calorie day. :(
Still REALLY, really, really hungry today. I ate quit a bit. Wonder how many days it takes for the steroids I was taking for poison ivy to get out of my system. I'm thinking that is the cause for the hunger.

 * I I don't consider buttermilk and yogurt TOO high in carbs. Please see this article --- Carbs in buttermilk and yogurt



11-27-2012 Tuesday

B- 2 coffee with HC (200 cals/ 0 carbs)
1 Walmart brand sausage patty (200 cals, 0 carbs)
Total for breakfast cals = 400 / carbs= 0

L- chicken breast fillet (130 cals/ 0 carbs)
1 T mayo (90 cals / 0 carbs)
1 can green beans (70 cals / 14 carbs/ 7 fiber)
Couple sprays of I can't believe its butter (0 cals / 0 carbs)
1 cucumber in vinegar (cals = 15/ carbs=4 / 2 fiber)
1/2 c pistachios (160 cals/ 8 carbs , 3 fiber) 
20 oz water  
10oz green tea w/2 AS
Total for lunch cals = 465 / carbs =26 /fiber =12

D-2 eggs (cals =144/ carbs = 0)
1 T butter (cals = 70 / carbs = 0)
1 oz Velveeta cheese (cals = 80 / carbs =3)
1 stalk celery (cals =6 / carb = 1)
1 T heavy cream(cals = 50 / carbs =0)
20 oz SF tea with lemon & AS
Total for dinner cals =350  /carbs =4

SN-  1 cucumber in vinegar (cals = 15/ carbs=4 / 2 fiber)
 1 SF Toffee square (70 cals= / carbs= 1)

Total for the day cals = 1300 /carbs = 35 / fiber = 14


Got on scale today at work...249.12....down 10 and 1/2 pounds in 4 weeks.  I'll take that. Friday is my 'official' weigh in day. So we will see....Just wish it wasn't the same pounds I've lost over and over and over again :( ....onward and downward
10am I'm starving today..might be the steroid. I just took the last one so hopefully it will get better

11-26-12 Monday

1:30am - 1 string cheese (80 cals/ 1carb)

B- 2 coffee HC (200 cal/ 0 carbs)
1 Walmart brand Sausage patty (200 cal/1 carb)
Total for breakfast =400 cals / 1 carb

L- McDonald's side salad (20 cal/ 4 carbs, 1 fiber)
added a few cucumber slices( 10 cals/ 0 carbs),
1oz cheese (110 cals/ 1 carb)
1 grilled chicken breast (130 cals/ 0 carbs)
Walden farms ranch dressing(0. Cal/ 0 carbs)
20 oz water
Total for lunch =270 cals/ 5 carbs

SN- 1/2 bag of 100 cal snack almonds (50 cals /1.5 carbs)
10 oz water

D- 1 can Green beans (70 cals/ 14 carbs, 7 fiber )
1 T catchup (20 cals/ 4 carbs)
3.6 oz hamburger ( 270 cals, 0 carbs )
1 T mayo(90 cals/0 carbs)
several glasses water
Total for dinner =450 cals / 18 carbs)

SN- 1 SF Toffee square (70 cals= / carbs= 1)

Totals for the day Calorie =1320 carbs= 27.5, fiber =8
? lots of water

Up half the night last night. I only got 3 hrs sleep....ugh!  I'm taking steroids, I got into poison ivy and it swelled my eye shut and swelled 1/2 my face. I know wrong season for that, wish someone would let my skin know, lol.

11-25-12 Sunday

It's me again. I'm back again to try and deal with these weight issues. I've been up and down, low carb, low calorie , on plan, off plan, you name it. I have been doing a lot of soul searching lately and have come to the conclusion that low carb has always been best for me. I don't know why I have chosen for so long to listen to others instead of my own body. My joints, body and my mind feels sooooo much better when I'm low carbing. Lately I've had a lot of joint pain. It's so amazing what you can do when you're motivated by pain.
This year on June 15 I totally quit drinking diet soda pop....cold turkey. I was having kidney issues ( bleeding and lots of pain in my back) long story short, I'm fine now but it taught me if I can quit my soda pop then I can do ANYTHING! So after lots of joint pain I decided a few weeks ago that I need to go back to low carb too.
I got a new smart phone, (YAY!!) So it will be a lot easier to blog my menus. So starting tomorrow, I am back baby!!! See you all then

PS......Looks like I have a lot of work to do on my links. Lots of them not working. I will try to get to it ASAP. :) 

o5-27-2010 Thursday

B- 6:30am
no coffee
1 egg with celery and cheese
2 LC toast

12pm *2 mile walk

L-1:00pm
1 tub Dannon carb controlled Yogurt
1 slim jim beef and cheese stick
few pork rinds

SN 5:25pm
4 beef sticks
4 string cheese

d-8:30pm
2 cheesy polish sausage
2 LC bread
2 roma tomatos

05-26-2010 Wednesday

5:15 a.m. *3 mile walk
B- 7:15am
2 c coffee CO HC
1 egg with celery and cheese
2 LC toast

L-12:00pm
1 tub Dannon carb controlled Yogurt
1 slim jim beef and cheese stick
few pork rinds

SN 5:25pm
2 beef sticks
2 string cheese

D-6:15pm
2 bowls Chicken Medley w/ few chow mein noodles

SN-10pm
2 beef sticks
2 string cheese

05-25-2010 Tuesday

6am-7am -*3 mile walk
B- 8am
2 c coffee CO HC
1 egg with celery and cheese
2 LC toast

L-12:30pm
1 McDonald's Bacon Ranch grilled chicken salad w/Newman's own Ranch dressing

SN-4:30pm
2 beef sticks
1 oz cheese

D-7:30pm
Hunts No sugar added spaghetti sauce w/hamburger onions and green peppers.
on a bed of cabbage w/Parmesan cheese

SN-8:30pm
1 Saje's LC Peanut butter cup

It is hot and humid here in the midwest so I got up early to take a 3 mile walk. I kind of like getting it out of the way first thing in the morning. I'm gonna try to do that again in the morning. It sure cuts into my sleep though.
As you can see from yesterdays weigh in I haven't lost weight. I'm trying not to think about it. I feel like I'm doing all this walking and cutting back and nothing. I might as well be sitting on the couch eating chips. I mean, I wouldn't lose doing that either, so why am I putting this much effort into something that is not working? Because it has worked in the past. I just keep hoping that my body will start letting go soon. I have to keep in mind that I am a VERY insulin resistant diabetic and it WILL be harder for me.

05-24-2010 Monday

B- 7:45am
2 c coffee CO HC
1 egg with celery and cheese
2 LC toast

*2 mile walk at lunch

L-12:00pm
1 tub Dannon carb controlled Yogurt
1 slim jim beef and cheese stick
few pork rinds

5:30pm
beef stick and 2 string cheese

6:30pm
1/2 of a rotisserie chicken breast
2 ears corn w/butter

9pm
3 beef sticks
3 string cheese

WT= 255

HUNGRY tonight. Craving sweets. I'm sure its the PMS. So I ate a lil too much.
Not enough veggies for today either.

The plan is since it is HOT and humid around here to get up an hour and 1/2 early in the morning to walk. We will see how it goes.

05-22-2010 Sunday

B- 8:30am
2 c coffee CO HC
1 egg with celery and cheese
2 LC toast

L-12:30pm
1 tub Dannon carb controlled Yogurt
4 ritz w/butter
green beans w/bacon butter and onion
2 hot dogs w/LC catchup

SN-4pm
1 Saje's LC Peanut butter cup

D-7:30pm
Hunts No sugar added spaghetti sauce w/hamburger onions and green peppers.
on a bed of cabbage w/Parmesan cheese

SN-9:30pm
cukes and tomatoes in vinegar

Today was a lazy, PMS day. A cramping, bloating, irritable, exhausted, and feeling crappy most of the time, blah day. My mind has NOT been in a good place all day.
I know, I know too much information. I usually don't like to share info. So I made myself write the above because it's how I was truly feeling today. You see I'm not really much of a sharing person. Never have been. I share with my husband, my sister and my son, but not many people know the REAL me. I started this blog thinking that if I was truly anonymous I would share more. Nope, I'm still always thinking someone I know will stumble on to the blog. I know weird huh? I don't really know why I'm so guarded. Well, thats not entirely true. I live in constant fear of being judged. It comes from being judged as a kid and not being able to control the situation I was being judged for. I'm slowing working through it. So from now on I will try to write something personal everyday. Something I am uncomfortable with. :)

05-22-2010 Saturday

B-8:30am
2 coffee HC CO
2 LC Bread
1 egg w/1 T peanut butter and Sugar free Smuckers syrup
1 sausage patty

L-12:30pm
1 tub Dannon carb controlled Yogurt
Slim Jim beef and cheese
few pork rinds.
6 Ritz crackers w/butter

D-4:30pm
Mock potato salad
Green bean made with bacon, onion and butter
KFC grilled chicken breast

SN-1 Saje's LC Peanut butter cup
6 ritz crackers with butter
Few pieces of summer sausage and cheese.

No walk today

Today we celebrated my Mom-in-laws birthday. We went prepared. I made Mock potato salad and green beans. Went to KFC and got 1/2 bucket of Regular chicken and 1/2 bucket of grilled. We had a nice time..

I tried today to keep the same schedule as I do when I'm working. I got real snacky feelings last night. I should have just went to bed. I knew my problem was that I was tired.

05-21-2010 Friday


B- 6:30am
2 c coffee CO HC
1 egg with celery and cheese
2 LC toast

L-12:30pm
1 tub Dannon carb controlled Yogurt
Slim Jim beef and cheese
few pork rinds.

SN-3pm
1 oz cheese
few pork rinds

SN-5:30pm
1 Saje's LC Peanut butter cup
6 Ritz crackers
1/4 cup milk

D-7:15pm
Round steak w/low carb catchup
Cauliflower w/butter, french onion dip and onions

SN-9pm
1 cuke w/vinegar

No walk today. Raining and storming.

I almost had a melt down today. Work was awful, I felt tired, grumpy and tired. Did I say TIRED?? I got home feeling terrible without any plans as to what to eat for dinner. Which I know is a no-no for me. I got thru it without it being TOO bad. Not the best, but could have been worse.

05-20-2010 Thursday

B- 6:30am
1 c coffee CO HC
1 egg with celery and cheese
2 LC toast

*Walked 2 miles

L-12pm
1 tub Dannon carb controlled Yogurt
1pm
Slim Jim beef and cheese
few pork rinds.

D-6:00pm
Chicken fajitas (no tortillas) lettuce, tomato, sour cream, cheese, onion, peppers, salsa, lil bean dip
few chips and salsa

SN- will edit if I have one.

05-19-2010 Wednesday

B- 7:15am
1 c coffee CO HC
1 egg with celery and cheese
2 LC toast

*Walked 2 miles

L-12pm
1 tub Dannon carb controlled Yogurt
1pm
Salad with cukes, tomato, cheese, egg and ham w/ ranch

D-7pm
Fried Rutabaga with lil onion and lil sausage
Grilled chuck steak w/carb controlled catchup

SN- NONE

I was thinking that rutabagas were low carb. Uhhhh....nope... :(
1 large rutabaga has 62.76 carbs /19.30 fiber =43.46 net carbs per large rutabaga, which is probably the serving I had. :( Guess I should have looked it up BEFORE I ate it. O'well. I think I might have made this same mistake before. Geez...

I'm feeling pretty good. I don't feel hungry or I should say I'm not in that craving mode. I like that feeling. Hope the Rutabaga doesn't bring on the cravings. It shouldn't that mostly happens for me when I get a hold of sugary foods.

05-18-2010 Tuesday

B-7am
2 c coffee CO HC lil cinnamon and vanilla
1 Flaxseed pancake w/1 t peanut butter and Smuckers SF syrup
1/2 of a sausage patty

L-1pm
1 Dannon Carb smart yogurt
1 Slim Jim beef and cheese stick
1 Saje's LC Peanut butter cup

SN-3:30pm
1 T sunflower seeds

D- 7:30pm
3 egg Yolks (yolks only)
4 LC toast
bacon

No walk today. I decided to let my legs rest.
Busy day today but no low sugars. So YEAH!!!!
It's 9pm now and I got up at 4am. Turning in.
Night all. :)

05-17-2010 Monday

B-2 cups coffee HC CO lil vanilla and cinnamon
1 egg, celery and cheese omelet
1 1/2 slices Healthy Life toast

Walked 2 miles (8 spree candies- low sugar)

L- 6 ritz crackers
1 oz cheese
1 tub carb/sugar controlled yogurt
1 package of turkey budding meat

SN- 3pm
6 ritz crackers w/cheese
Diet Dr. Pepper

SN-6:30pm
1 slice reg bread w/butter at my brothers house after going grocery shopping. Sugar dropping low

D-7:15pm
chicken cooked with onion & peppers
lettuce, tomatoes, sour cream and salsa
2 small ears of corn with butter
Diet Coke

SN-Saje's Low Carb Peanut Butter cup
Diet Coke

I had a lot of problems with my sugar dropping on me today. I'm trying to keep that fine line. I'm scared to have it go up on me because of the infections I keep getting. So it's a guessing game to figure out what the low carb diet and the walking will do to me, then mix in there the clinic. Sometimes we are busy and sometimes we are not. I will work it out. It usually just takes awhile. So please don't use these menus as an example Low carb menu. While it is Lower carb then a normal diet it is still not the best.

The walk today was a hard one. My calf and shin started hurting about half way but it was too late to turn back. Just as far one way as it was the other. :)

I missed the season finally of House tonight. Hope I can find it on the Internet somewhere. Anyone else watch House? I'm a late bloomer when it comes to that show. I just started watching it. We have been watching reruns on Saturday nights.

It's nice to be back. :)


05-16-10 Sunday

B-1 cup coffee HC CO a lil vanilla and a lil cinnamon
few pieces of string cheese and beef sticks

6.2 mile walk
My sugar was a lil low after the walk so I had a snack
SN- 6 ritz with butter and 1/2 c milk

L-Coffee HC a lil sweetner
2 eggs with cheese
3 strips bacon

SN- 2 string cheese

D-Bacon green beans
the other half of the steak from last nights dinner
lil catchup

I've been tossing this around in my head for awhile now. I think I'm going to start blogging my meals again. I kept a food journal for a whole year. Well, not on here, I started blogging them about half way through. I'm feeling so much better and in control now. The food journal kept me honest. I've started walking again and I'm feeling great about it. I'm up to 2 to 3 miles 5 times a week and I try to get a bigger walk in on the weekends. Now I'm back on Low Carb. I initially gain 8 lbs with the walking but now I'm back to the weight I was on the 19th of March when I started walking, which is 256. I hate admitting I'm back up in the 250's when I struggled SOOO hard to get out of them.

We went out last night for our anniversary. It was wonderful. We had a salad, steak and green bean in place of a potato. We asked that the rolls not be brought to the table and informed the waitress we were low carbers due to my diabetes. She was so pleasant about about it. When she came to the table with our salads she informed us she did not put the croûtons on the salad and asked if we wanted them. Of course, we didn't. I had forgot to tell her no croûtons. Everything was wonderful and the green beans were GREAT. I did not feel deprived at all. Which is what usually happens if I have to substitute something I don't want in place of something I know would taste wonderful. I'm glad we were alone because I don't think I could have handled those rolls at our table.

I think it is all in the attitude. I have to remember that. :)

The walk today was great. When we set out we really didn't have an idea of where we were going, then decided on walking to a Big R store. When we came home and took the car back there to see how far it was, it was 6.2 miles. :) If it hadn't been raining it would have been better. I have so much energy, wish I had this much energy all the time.

05-01-2010 Saturday

Illinois Marathon 5K !!!!!!!!
What an experience. The energy vibrating off of everyone else was just so intoxicating and addictive. I LOVED IT!!!!!

We meant our goal by walking it in under 1 hour. Please remember I'm a shorty and my lil legs don't stretch that far. I'm trying to get faster.

LOVED IT!!!!!!!

04-17-2010 Saturday

Walked a 5k with 2 lb weights on each ankle. WOOOOO Hooooo !!!!

Infection is doing much better too. Hopefully I can still move tomorrow. I didn't realize how much 2 lil old pounds made such a BIG difference. :)



04-16-2020 Friday

No walk today resting up for tomorrows 5K. Walking it with 2 lb weights on each ancle. :)

04-14-2010 Wednesday

B 2 coffee w/HC and soy
1 egg
1 hot dog
1 oz cheese
2 LC toast

L- 1 LC bread
1 polish sausage
1/4 c sunflower seeds
1 SF 7up

D- 3 small bowls pepper steak
1/2 chow mein noodles
2 diet cokes
1 c buttermilk

SN- 1 c buttermilk

3:30am- (low) 5 strawberries, 3 corn chips

Walked 2 miles at lunch today. :)

Infection isn't any better but it is not any worse either.


04-13-2010 Tuesday

B- 2 c coffee HC/soy
2 sausage patties w/peanut butter and SF syrup

L- 2 slices ham
1 LC Bun w/mustard
Medley Vegetables, bean sprouts, chicken stock and 1/4 c chow mein noodles

D- 1 LC bun
1 hamburger w/mustard, catchup, pickles and cheese
Spinach salad (spinach, strawberries, walnuts, sunflower seeds, oil, honey, vinegar)

SN- 1 c buttermilk

Wt=256

Walked 1 and 1/2 miles at lunch today.


04-12-2010 Monday

B- 1 coffee soy milk
1 egg
1 hot dog
1 oz cheese

L- 1 Low Carb bun
2 slices ham
mustard

2pm shaky -1 sugar cookie

D- 1 Walmart Chicken breast
spinach salad (spinach, strawberries, walnuts, sunflower seeds, oil, vinegar and honey)
1/2 c potato salad


Walked 1 mile during lunch.

Infection is worse. I don't know what to do. Grrrrrrrrr

04-10-2010 Saturday

Walked a 5K (3.1 miles)

04-06-2010 Tuesday


Interview with: Dr. Bernstein on Low-Carb Diets, Treatments & Politics

Thanks Harry for passing on this link. Lots of valuable info here. Passing it along. :)

B-8am-
2 coffee HC/CO/lil soy milk
1 egg, 1 oz cheese, 1 hot dog
2 LC toast

L-12:50pm-
1 egg, 1 oz cheese, 1 hot dog
2 LC toast
SF Lemonade

SN-4pm-
1/4 c sunflower seeds

D-7:45pm-
6 oz Grilled Chuck steak w/catsup
2 grilled hot dogs w/catsup
Salad w/lettuce, cukes, tomatoes, cheese and home made mayo dressing.
Diet Coke

SN-2:30am LOW SUGAR
Scary- 5 mini muffins, 1/2 cup milk


Dinner was SOOOOooooo good tonight. My son cooked out on the grill. I got home and the grill was going. Oooooo I LOVE that smell. Thanks Baby Boy!

Walked 2.1 miles at lunch today. Shin is feeling a lil better but still bothering me a little.

04-05-2010 Monday

B- 2 coffee HC/CO/lil soy milk
2 sausage patties
2 t. peanut butter
2 t. SF syrup

L- 1/4 cup sunflower seeds
1 12oz Diet 7up

D-3 bowls Chicken medley soup ~hungry!!!!
3/4 c. chow mein noodles
Diet Root Beer

SN- see edit below



I walked 2 miles at lunch today.
Back on track today. YEA!!!
That is the reason for the small lunch. After my walk I wasn't real hungry and thought I would just wait. Ended up just having the sunflower seeds.

I'm walking a 5k this Saturday. :)

Infection is doing better. Antibiotics doing their job. I hate taking those things. I really need to do some research to figure out how to get my immunity up. I've been taking probiotics since Nov. 2009. I know my sleep pattern doesn't help it any.

All in all, I'm still working on me.

Edit: Grrrrrr, didn't make it low carb. I ended up getting a snack pac size bag of chips, 5 mini reese cups and 5 mini banana muffins. Oh, and a glass of milk. Grrrrr. I was craving SOOO bad. Once I slipped I just went all out and said forget it. I will try again. Wish I would have been more prepared for those craving I know I always get. But just decided I was going back to low carb and did it without preparing for the worse of it. Grrrrrrrr

04-03-2010 Saturday

I walked 3 miles yesterday 4/2/10

04-02-2010 Friday

I'm feeling the need to ....... I don't even know. I have another infection. This time on my eye lid. I stayed home from work today because I look like a monster. Went to the doctor, gave me another round of antibiotic. I've been better since I was in the hospital in Nov/Dec. I was put on IV Vancomycin treatments for 30 days after leaving the hospital. But I'm still having outbreaks. I've been tested many times for MRSA. I don't have MRSA. I have Staphylococcus aureus which is EVERYWHERE on EVERYONE. But for some reason (probably due to the diabetes) my body isn't fighting it the way it should. It seems to be fighting them better lately. This is the first round of antibiotics since the hospital stay. So that is something I guess. I really wish I knew the cause. I went through another tough patch of insomnia lately. Did I get my resistance down? Some people believe it's hormonal. I just ended my female cycle. Could it be that? I looked on the Internet and some people believe its in the toxic rain. It did rain here a few days ago and I was out in it. Is it that? Who knows, Lord knows I don't.

I really need to find my way back to low carbing. Been thinking about just writing a menu for myself and just following that over and over until I get back on track. I've done really well today so far, so now is the best time to start.

I've also joined several walking marathons and several Relay for Life events this year to keep myself moving. First one is next Saturday. I'm waiting for the Hubby to wake and I'm gonna talk him into doing a 3 mile walk with me today.

Hope everyone is doing great. I will make my way around to 'see' how all is doing. :)

03-30-2010 Tuesday

Walked 1 and 1/2 mile

03-25-2010 Thursday

Walked 1 and 1/2 miles

12-06-09 Sunday

6am bg248/95 u Lev
B-8:30 am
2 mini bagels w/cream cheese (38)
2 eggs
2 hotdogs
30 u Hum/met


Hey all my blogger friends,
Just thought I would jump in and give everyone an update.
I'm still here. Not really low carbing but I'm still 'watching' my carbs. I'm following doctors orders at this time. (not sure what I think about them, just following orders) I have been in the hospital. I'm still fighting this staph infection that I have been fighting since February. They have me on Vancomicin(sp?) by a central line now. I go in each morning and let them hook me up for a couple of hours. Hopefully this will do the trick and kill out this nasty bug for ever. Since I'm allergic to a LOT of the antibiotic and not being able to take the ones I need to kill the bug, the doctor said I have just been keeping the bug at bay and not really killing it off each time.

I hope this finds everyone well and I will try to make rounds on everyones blog to catch up with all of you.

Happy Holidays
Jo

09-05-09 Saturday

HAPPY LABOR DAY WEEKEND!!!!

I think I'm finally on the upward swing of this infection. I'm still dealing with the everyday care, but it's sooooo much better. The redness is almost gone and swelling is better. I still have to pack it twice a day (TMI - sorry) and that is very painful but I'm still much better than before. Getting stronger everyday.

Sorry, I feel like I've just abandoned the blog. I'm still keeping my menus in my handy dandy notebook (yes, I've been watching Blues Clues with my niece- LOL). I'll post them when I can.

Going to try to enjoy the last hoop-la of the summer and I'm going to go to the Labor Day Festival. Hubbies gonna drop me off so I don't have to walk as far. He's a great guy. :)

08-29-09 Saturday

Hey all,
I'm still here.
I had surgery yesterday. I'm moving kind of slow. I've been fighting infection since the 1st week of August. I'm hoping I'm on the tale end of it now.

I am keeping track of my menus on paper and will list them soon. Sorry to say they have not been low carb.

Hope everyone is doing fine. I will catch up when I can.

:)

08-16-09 Sunday


B-3 coffee HC AS CO

L-(12pm)
2 spicy sausage
2 Healthy Life LC toast

(2:00pm)
1 c apple jacks (dry)
20 black cherries
1/2 slice homemade bread

(4:17pm)
1 slice homemade bread
20 black cherries
1 SF ice cream bar

(8pm)
2 cups spaghetti sauce w/meat
20 black cherries
6 ritz w/peanut butter
DanActive lite

08-15-09 Saturday

B- (10:30am)
2 coffee HC AS
2 eggs
1 slice Healthy Life toast

L-(12pm)
1 slice homemade bread w/butter
(1pm)
1/2 bbq chicken breast
potaotoes, onions, polish mixture
1 roll w/butter

D- (8:10pm)
Chicken Fajitas (no wraps)
w/onion, peppers, sour cream, tomatoes, cheese, guacamole
1 glass red wine

(9:30pm)
Danactive
1 SF ice cream bar

(10:41pm)
1 cup apple jacks (dry)
2 cookies

08-14-09 Friday

B- (7:30am)
2 coffee HC AS
2 eggs
1 slice Healthy Life toast

L-(12pm)
1 chicken breast
1/2 c potato salad
15 chips/ salsa dip
Sm slice of cake, but not all of the icing
1/4 c ice cream

D-(8pm)
8 oz steak
chicken teriyaki w/ cabbage
5 crab Rangoon
lil' pepper steak
fresh pineapple

SN-(10:30pm)
1/2 slice homemade bread
DanActive lite

08-13-09 Thursday

B- (6:45am)
2 coffee HC AS
2 eggs
1 slice Healthy Life toast

L-(12pm)
2 slices Healthy Life LC bread
1 oz turkey ham
1 slice cheese
Mayo
5 strawberries

D-(6pm)
2 bowls Chicken medley soup
1/2 c. chow mein noodles
2 cups apple jacks (dry)

(8:30pm) DanActive

08-12-09 Wednesday

B-(10am)
2 coffee HC AS
2 eggs
1 slice LC toast

L-(12pm)
2 lc healthy life toast
1 oz cheese
cucumber
10 grape tomatoes in vinegar

sn-(4pm) 5 ritz

d- (6pm)
2 bowls beef strogenoff
4 black cherries
danactive yogurt drink

sn- (11pm) sf jello w/hc


I stayed home today see the doctor again. I have a bad infection and the doc wants to keep an eye on it.
Something that was said to me yesterday has my head spinning. I was talking to a dietitian friend of mine yesterday. I work with her. I was talking about my diabetes and this infection I have (which is the 2nd major one in 2 months now), I'm a little worried because this is what my Dad died from (complications of an infection due to diabetes). So I share my worries with her that I'm only 40 and I'm scared that complications are starting to arise in my health due to diabetes. I have worked with her in the past on my menus and my diabetes. She doesn't believe in Low Carb at all and makes it known to me frequently that she doesn't think I should be Low Carbing and doesn't believe it is the best thing for my health or my diabetes. We have went many rounds about this and we just usually agree to disagree. She again told me yesterday that I should be following the ADA diet recommendations. I again told her that even that diet was too high in carbs for me, that eating that many carbs per meal raises my BG so high I have to end up taking more insulin. (Okay, this is where it gets my head spinning) She told me that it's because I have been low carbing for so long that I have damaged my body's own ability to handle that many carbs and because I have been eating this way I may have done permanent damage to my body. This lady is a registered Dietitian !
I have always believed that what I'm doing is right thing for me. But I can't help but wonder, she has went to school, trained and worked in nutrition for more than 20 years. Could she be right?
Just for your FYI she also has a thing with doctors telling diabetics what to eat because she believes they should be referring those patients to a nutritionist. We have had the disagreement about what my doc says, I've showed her Dr. Berstein's book etc.
I just want to know what I'm doing is right and right for me. <<-sigh->>

08-11-09 Tuesday

B-(8am)
2 coffee HC AS
1 Healthy Life toast
1 sausage patty

L-(12pm)
5 ritz
1 oz turkey
1 oz cheese

D-(7:30pm)
hamburger, onions, peppers
No sugar added spaghetti sauce over
Shredded zucchini sautéed
Parmesan cheese

SN- 9 black cherries

Late night at work so dinner was really late.

Not to self: the zucchini was too watery to be substituted as spaghetti.
So now what am I going to do with all these zucchinis??? HMMMMmmmm!

08-10-09 Monday

B-1/2 c coffee HC AS

L-none

D-
1 Arby's Supper
1 Order fries

SN-
4 LC Healthy life Toast w/cheese
1 cup milk

08-09-09 Sunday

B-2 coffee HC AS
1 bowl fruity pebbles
2 spicy sausage

L-few chips

D- 3 chili dogs
1 order onion rings

SN-1/2 cucumber
w/vinegar

YEAH!!!!
I'm back up and running.

I have lots of work to do on the blog. I will get it done as soon as I can.
As you can see menus have not been pretty. I'm hoping this will get me back on track.
I'm still struggling with this depression I'm going through. I do feel a little better. So maybe I'm on the upswing of things. I buried my Mom 2 years ago today. Having a tough time of it this year and again I have been using food to get through it.
On a good note, we finally got our rental property rented. It is very small so it is hard to rent out. That should take some of the financial hardship off of us. It won't re-leave it all but it's sure gonna help.

08-08-09 Saturday

B- 2 coffee HC AS
2 bowls Fruity Pebbles

L- 1/4 St. Patty's melt

D- 8 oz steak w/catchup
Teriaki chicken w/catchup
mashed potatoes w/gravy
4 crab rangoon
2 cookies
1 slice apple pie, 1 scoop ice cream, 1 scoop ice cream

08-04-2009 Tuesday

Still have issues with my computer. I'm posting this from work. I'm hoping to be up and running soon.
I'm still keeping track of all menus.


Edited to add:
B-(7:30am)
2 coffee HC CO
2 eggs
1 Healthy life Toast w/butter

L- (12pm)
Chicken Fajitas onion peppers (no tortillas)
25 chips w/salsa

D-(7pm)
3 sm bowls Captain Crunch cereal
chips w/sour cream

SN- (9pm)
sm fries

08-03-09 Monday

B- 2 coffee
2 eggs
1 slice toast w/butter

L- McDonald's Bacon Ranch salad w/ grilled chicken and Ranch Dressing

D- 3/4 pork steak
augratin potatoes
4 ears corn w/butter

SN- 2 cookies
1 slice zucchini bread

08-02-09 Sunday

Still having computer issues. We have found some bugs, worms etc. I may have to reformat the whole thing. Shoot.

Edited to add menu:
B- 3 coffee
2 Healthy life bread w/1 egg SF syrup peanut butter
2 spicy sausage patties

L-2 double cheeseburgers
1 bread stick w/cheese
salad w/ 1000 dressing

D- 1 pork chop w/ catchup
3 slices healthy life bread w/ gravy
2 slices zucchini bread
3 cookies

08-01-09 Saturday

I think I'm back, at least until the crash comes again. My computer is still not fixed but at least it's up and running for now. I have lots packed into the weekend so I hope I can catch up with you all soon.

I will post more later........

PS. I will also post past days menu ASAP

EDITED to add menu:
B-3 coffee AS HC
2 Healthy Life LC toast w/ 1 spicy sausage patty

L-med fries
1 double cheese burger

SN- Few bites of my nieces Icy

D- 2 bread sticks w/cheese
salad
pizza

07-30-09 Thursday

I'm posting this from work on my lunch hour. I usually don't as I know big brother is always watching. But I'm to the point that I just don't care. I feel out of control. Like I'm going through a sort of depression. My food is out of control. I keep feeding myself to make myself feel better. (It's not working, but I keep doing it anyway). It's like trying to make a child feel better with a sucker, but I'm not feeling better.
Part of it is worry over losing my job and not being able to pay for my son's schooling. Part of it is the two year anniversary of my Mom's death coming up (I miss her sooooooo much). Part of it is not getting a new job that I applied for. And Part of it is.........I don't know. I feel my insides shaking and I don't know what to do about it. I've tried to calm it with my normal crutch (food).

I hope this will pass soon. I don't know what to do about it. I'm keeping myself busy with chores and work. Trying to get my mind calmed and not thinking about it. But no matter what I do, it's there.

Thanks for listening. This has been affecting me for a while now. Maybe just getting it off my chest will help.

07-28-09 Tuesday

My Computer Crashed!

I'm hoping to have it working again when my son comes home this weekend.

I will be keeping track of my menus on paper and will add later.

Have a great day everyone!

Editing to add menu:
B-2 coffee
2 eggs
2 Healthy life toast w/butter

L- chicken fajitas onion peppers (no tortillas)
20 chips w/ salsa

SN- 7 combos

D- 2 bowls reg spaghetti w/ sauce hamburger onion peppers
20 dark cherries
5 rollos candy

07-25-09 Saturday

B-(8:30am)
2 coffee as hc [0 carbs /0 protein]
2 eggs [1 carbs /12 protein]
1 slice healthy life toast w/butter [6 carbs /2 protein]
Total for breakfast [7 carbs /14 protein]

L-(12:30pm)
McDonald's Bacon Ranch Salad w/grilled chicken [9 carbs / 33 protien]
Ranch dressing [9 carbs / 1 protein]

SN-(2:30pm)
1 small sausage patty

D- (7:30pm)
Gyros meat from 1 gyro
1/2 small fries

SN-(11:30 pm)
1 sausage patty
1 Slice Healthy life Low carb bread
6 strawberries
4 cookies
2 cups milk

Made a run up by Chicago today to a Meat market. They had a terrific sale going on. We packed up our coolers and took off. We got pork steak, pork chops, hamburger, breakfast sausage, rib tips all for $1.00 a pound. Chicken leg quarters for .79 cents a pound and chicken wings for .69 cents a pound. Our freezer is stocked for awhile. If I lose my job (state budget cuts) at least we will be eating for awhile. :) Since we were going so far to get it, we made it worth our while. We ended up getting over 100 pounds of meat. We rode with my brother and his wife and split the gas money as to not add to the cost of the meat. We made sausage patties and hamburger patties up then packaged the rest in easy smaller family serving sizes.

07-24-09 Friday

B-(6:30am)2 coffee as hc [0 carbs /0 protein]
2 eggs [1 carbs /12 protein]
1 slice healthy life toast w/butter [6 carbs /2 protein]
Total for breakfast [7 carbs /14 protein]

L-(12pm)2 slices LC Healthy life bread [12 carbs /4 protein]
2 slices turkey ham [2 carbs /10 protein]
1 slices cheese [1 carbs /3 protein]
Mayo [0 carbs /0 protein]
7 cherry tomatoes [5 carbs /0 protein]
Total for Lunch [20carbs /17 protein]

SN- (5pm)
2 saltines
1 hotdog[4 carbs / 4 protein]

D-(8:00pm)
6 oz steak w/1 T catchup
6 shrimp
1/2 c mashed pot gravy
3 strawberries
3 oz chicken
salad w/ lettuce, spinach, tomato, onion, cheese, cukes, bacon, ranch

07-23-09 Thursday

B-(7am)
2 coffee as hc [0 carbs /0 protein]
2 eggs [1 carbs /12 protein]
1 slice healthy life toast w/butter [6 carbs /2 protein]
Total for breakfast [7 carbs /14 protein]

L-(12pm)
Chicken Fajita w/onion, peppers, salsa, sour cream -no tortillas -no chips
[estimate: 12 carbs / 50 protein]
Total for Lunch [estimate: 12 carbs / 50 protein]

D-(6:30pm)
1 pork steak [0 carbs / 47 protein]
3/4 cup cooked medley veggies [ 3 carbs/ 2 protein]
1 T. one carb catchup [1 carb / 0 protein]
1 T. BBQ sauce [ 7 carb / 0 protein]
Total for Dinner [ 11 carbs / 49 protein]

Total for the day [30 carbs / 113 protein]

EDIT: (11:30pm)
Low Sugar - 2 slices Healthy Life Low Carb bread
one with peanut butter and jelly
the other with butter.

Wt=233

No snack.
I'm not hungry at all tonight. Wish this feeling would happen everyday/night. I'm very tired. I know that is a signal for me to watch it. I usually get the munches when I'm tired. Think I will take my shower and turn in. Try to get some extra zzzzzzzzz's.
Sorry I haven't had much going on here at the time capsule. Not much to say, sorry.

07-22-09 Wednsday

B-(7:30am)2 coffee as hc [0 carbs /0 protein]
2 eggs [1 carbs /12 protein]
1 slice healthy life toast w/butter [6 carbs /2 protein]
Total for breakfast [7 carbs /14 protein]

L-(12pm)2 slices LC Healthy life bread [12 carbs /4 protein]
2 slices turkey ham [2 carbs /10 protein]
1 slices cheese [1 carbs /3 protein]
Mayo [0 carbs /0 protein]
7 cherry tomatoes [5 carbs /0 protein]
Total for Lunch [20carbs /17 protein]

D- (6pm)
2 bowls of beef strogenoff [8 carbs / 30 ? protein]

SN- 1 SF Toffee Sq.
1 jello w/heavy cream
1 SF Popsicle

07-21-09 Tuesdays

B-(7:30am)3 coffee as hc [0 carbs /0 protein]
2 eggs [1 carbs /12 protein]
1 slice healthy life toast w/butter [6 carbs /2 protein]
Total for breakfast [7 carbs /14 protein]

L-(12pm)2 slices LC Healthy life bread [12 carbs /4 protein]
2 slices turkey ham [2 carbs /10 protein]
1 slices cheese [1 carbs /3 protein]
Mayo [0 carbs /0 protein]
2 pickle spears [2 carb / 0 protein]
Total for Lunch [17 carbs /17 protein]

SN-(6:20pm) 1 cold hotdog [4 carbs / 4 protein]

D-(8:45pm)
2 slices LC Healthy life bread [12 carbs /4 protein]
2 eggs [1 carbs /12 protein]
1 T peanut butter [2.5 carb / 3.5 protein]
2 T SF syrup [1 carb / 0 protein]
1 sausage patty [0 carbs /6 protein]
SF jello w/ heavy cream [0 carbs / 0 protein]
[total dinner 16.5 carbs / 25.5 protein]

[Total for the day 44.5 carbs /60.5 protein]

6:30 to 8:30 push mowing

07-20-09 Monday

B-(6:30am)2 coffee as hc [0 carbs /0 protein]
2 eggs [1 carbs /12 protein]
1 slice healthy life toast w/butter [6 carbs /2 protein]
1 slice cheese [1 carb / 3 protein]
Total for breakfast [8 carbs /17 protein]

L-(12pm)2 slices LC Healthy life bread [12 carbs /4 protein]
2 slices turkey ham [2 carbs /10 protein]
1 slices cheese [1 carbs /3 protein]
Mayo [0 carbs /0 protein]
2 pickle spears [2 carb / 0 protein]
Total for Lunch [17 carbs /17 protein]

D- (6:30 pm)
4 hotdogs [16 carbs / 16 protein]
1 T. lC catchup [1 carb / 0 protein]


SN-(9pm)
4 - 3" celery stalks [1 carbs / 0 protein]
2 T cream cheese [ 1 carbs /2 protein]
2 SF Popsicles

07-19-09 Sunday

B-(9:30am)
2 coffee as hc [0 carbs /0 protein]
2 eggs [1 carbs /12 protein]
1 slice healthy life toast w/butter [6 carbs /2 protein]
1/2 sausage patty [0 carbs/ 3 protein]
1/2 slice cheese [1 carbs / 3 protein]
Total for breakfast [7 carbs /14 protein]

L- (1:30pm)
2 biscuits [19 carb /1 protein]
1 sausage patty [0 carbs /6 protein]
1 slice cheese [1 carb / 3 protein]

D-2 LC healthy life bread
peanut butter/ sf jelly
1 strawberry sunday w/chocolate
2 sf russell stovers toffee
1 sf carmel

07-18-09 Saturday


B- (11am)2 coffee AS HC
2 small bowl cornflakes w/banana

D- (5pm)
Au gratin potato
baked beans
1 chicken breast
lil pasta salad
1 slice home made multi grain bread w/butter
deviled egg half
1 slice anniversary cake

SN-1 bowl cornflakes w/banana

My Mother in Laws and Father in Laws 59th wedding anniversary party
.
The party went over great. EVERYONE showed up. They had all of their children there but one son and one grandson, who lives in New Mexico (their son got sick with the gout and couldn't make the trip. One grandson is in the Army stationed overseas) It was a total surprise.

07-17-09 Friday

B-(6:30am)2 coffee as hc [0 carbs /0 protein]
2 eggs [1 carbs /12 protein]
1 slice healthy life toast w/butter [6 carbs /2 protein]
Total for breakfast [7 carbs /14 protein]

L-(12pm)2 slices LC Healthy life bread [12 carbs /4 protein]
2 slices turkey ham [2 carbs /10 protein]
1 slices cheese [1 carbs /3 protein]
Mayo [0 carbs /0 protein]
Total for Lunch [15 carbs /17 protein]

D- 2 slices turkey ham [2 carbs /10 protein]
1 slices cheese [1 carbs /3 protein]
1 pickle spear [1 carb /0 protein]
5 3" celery sticks w/cream cheese
1 sq SF Toffee
3 SF carmels

SN- (12:30am)
White Castles
6 chicken rings
1 onion ring
small fries

(3am)
small bowl corn flakes w/banana


We went to a concert/ carnival up by Chicago. The gang wanted to stop at White Castle on the way home since we don't have any around where we live. I did fine until then. I even passed up the good carnival food and the funnel cakes.

We have family coming in for my In Laws 59th wedding anniversary tomorrow. I will be making most of the food for the party. Lots of food everywhere.

07-16-09 Thursday

(5:10am BG=136 30U + metformin)

B-(6:45pm)
2 coffee as hc [0 carbs /0 protein]
2 eggs [1 carbs /12 protein]
1 slice healthy life toast w/butter [6 carbs /2 protein]
Total for breakfast [7 carbs /14 protein]

(12pm BG=157)
L-(12pm) Work Baby shower/pot luck
3 meatballs -wiped all sauce off
1/4 c chicken salad
2 deviled egg halves
4 half stalks celery w/ cheese ball
1/4 c baked beans
3 small broccoli spears
[Total lunch estimate 20 carbs / ? protein]

(5:15pm BG=169) (6pm metformin )
D-(5:15pm)
4 oz hamburger w/mayo
small salad w/ 1.5 oz cheese, 5 cuke slices, 5 cherry tomatoes, bacon, ranch
[Total dinner 12 carbs / 35 protein]

(8:10pm BG=146) (8:30pm 30 u)

SN-(8:45pm)
SF jello w/heavy cream

WT=237 (finally releasing some of this water retention.)

I'm a little worried about my lunch today. We are having a carry in pot luck/baby shower. Since it's a baby shower too, I feel obligated to go. I was going to take a veggie tray but a friend of mine wanted my baked beans and said she would bring a veggie tray for me if I brought her my baked beans.

I've been reading Dr. Berstein's Diabetes Solution. Very interesting. So I've made some guidelines for myself to follow. The dr. recommends carbs being 6 breakfast / 12 lunch / 12 dinner. He also says for some it's better to ease into it (for BG reasons) So this is what I'm going to start with. The goal is to keep BG at a steady range, no high / low swings.

Goal
Breakfast 6 - 10 carbs / 14 - 20 protein
Lunch 12-20 carbs / ? protein
Dinner 12-20 carbs / ? protein

I haven't totally worked out the protein portion of this yet. According to Dr. Berstein it's what ever keeps you satisfied while keeping it consistent. So far the last few days my BG have been better than (my) normal. So I will have to tweak as I go.

07=15-09 Wednesday

(6:20am)(BG=136)(20U + metformin)

B-(7:15pm)
2 coffee as hc [0 carbs /0 protein]
2 eggs [1 carbs /12 protein]
1 slice healthy life toast w/butter [6 carbs /2 protein]
Total for breakfast [7 carbs /14 protein]

(12pm) (BG=155)
L-(12pm)
Chicken Fajita w/onion, peppers, salsa, sour cream -no tortillas -no chips
[estimate: 12 carbs / 50 protein]
Total for Lunch [estimate: 12 carbs / 50 protein]

(5:40pm)(BG=140)(metformin)
D-green beans [7 carbs /0 protein]
2.4 oz chuck steak [0 carbs /21 protein]
2 hot dogs [8 carbs /8 protein]
2 T 1 carb catchup [2 carbs /0 protein]
jello tub w/heavy cream [0 carbs / 0 protein]
Total for dinner [17 carbs / 29 protein]

SN-(9pm) (BG= 153) (20 u)
jello tub w/heavy cream [0 carbs / 0 protein]

Total for the day [36 carbs / 93 protein]

WT=240

Ooops, I thought those hot dogs I had was 1 carb each. Nope 4 each,grrrrr. Anyway, I'm doing better and that's what counts.

07-14-09 Tuesday

B-(7am)2 coffee as hc [0 carbs /0 protein]
2 eggs [1 carbs /12 protein]
1 slice healthy life toast w/butter [6 carbs /2 protein]
Total for breakfast [7 carbs /14 protein]

L-(12pm)2 slices LC Healthy life bread [12 carbs /4 protein]
2 slices turkey ham [2 carbs /10 protein]
2 slices cheese [2 carbs /6 protein]
Mayo [0 carbs /0 protein]
2 slices tomato [1 carbs /0 protein]
Total for Lunch [17 carbs /20 protein]

D-(6:30pm) 3 eggs [1.5 carbs /18 protein]
2 slices healthy life toast w/butter [12 carbs /4 protein]
2 sausage patty [2 carbs /12 protein]
Total for Dinner [15.5 carbs /34 protein]

sn-none

Total for the day [38.5 carbs /68 protein]

wt=244 (still water hanging on)

07-13-09 Monday

B-(6:30am)2 coffee HC AS
2 eggs
1 healthy life LC toast

L-(12pm) 2 Healthy life LC bread
2 slices turkey ham
3 slices cheese
mayo
2 slices tomato

D-(5:30pm) chicken breast
3/4 c potato salad
few potato wedges
bbq chicken
2 cookies

SN-(6:30pm)banana split
(9pm)1 glass tomato juice

07-12-09 Sunday

B-1 coffee AS HC
(11am)1 Thomasville LC english muffin
w/cream cheese sf jelly

L- (1:30pm)2 ding dongs
dark cherries

D-(4:30pm)Arby's bacon roastburger w/mayo, arby sauce
1 roast beef w/cheese mayo, arby sauce
1 lg curly fries w/cheese catchup
diet coke

Sn-2 sf Popsicles
1 hotdog

Still TOTALLY off plan, I will try my best tomorrow to get back with the program.
I always feel like such a fraud when it comes to this blog. I'm not the 'low carber' I would like to be. I'm not a fine example and I'm not the perfect tool. I'm human, but does that give me an excuse. No, I think not.
Your get it live here folks. !!!!
Like I've always said, you get the good, the bad and the extremely ugly here at this 'low carb' blog. It's more of a time capsule (hence the name) of what I ate or am eating, rather than a low carb example for anyone. So please if your reading this, DON'T use me as an example for a low carb life style.
It is what it is. I'm a struggling 'low carber' who hasn't lost a pound all year because I keep screwing it up for myself. It's just my life. Believe it or not, I'm trying to change that.

A little insight on NewVision here: You can always tell when I'm stressed by my eating patterns. I'm a big time stress carb eater. Stress and sleeplessness gets me every time. I have both going on right now :( .

I wanted to respond to Harry's comment from Thursdays here. (Just in case Harry doesn't look at the responses.)
Harry, Your advise is ALWAYS welcome. I know that you are a very kind and gentle soul that is not going to run me through the ringer (or get mad if I don't take your advice)
So advise away!! Lord knows I need all the help I can get.

07-11-09 Saturday

B- (9am)2 coffee HC AS
1 Thomas LC english muffin
w/cream cheese SF jelly

L- (2pm) dark cherries
1 hot dog
2 ding dongs

D(5pm) RJ's Bday Party
Cheese burger
2 servings baked beans
augratin potatoes
Cake, ice cream

SN-small fries
small onion ring
small strawberry sunday

I'm TOTALLY off plan and out of control

07-10-09 Friday

B-(6:30am)2 coffee as hc
2 eggs
1 slice healthy life toast w/butter

L-(12pm)Arbys Bacon BBQ roastburger (free coupon)
sm curly fries w/cheese
diet coke

SN-(7pm)dark cherries

D-(9:30pm)Arby's 2 super roast beef
LG curly fries w/cheese
diet coke

Sn-(11:30pm)bowl capt crunch


07-09-09 Thursday

B-(7am)2 coffee as hc
2 eggs
1 slice healthy life toast w/butter

L-(12pm) 1 cheese polish sausage
1 slice healthy life LC bread
1/2 of a lg dill pickle

D-(6pm) 3 oz hamburger meat w/lettuce tomoto, onion, cheese, french onion dip, salsa
2 bowls capt crunch cereal

SN-2 bowls capt crunch cereal

not good.

07-08-09 Wednesday

B-(6am)2 coffee as hc
2 eggs
1 slice healthy life toast w/butter

L-(12pm)2 slices LC Healthy life bread
2 slices turkey ham
2 slices cheese
Mayo
2 slices tomato

D-(6pm)7 oz pork steak w/1 carb catchup
medley veggies w/cheese

Sn-(8:30pm)french fries w/catchup
banana split

Not a very low carb day, that's for sure.

07-07-09 Tuesday

B- (7am)2 coffee AS HC
2 eggs
1 slice LC Healthy life toast w/butter

L-(12pm)2 slices LC Healthy life bread
2 slices turkey ham
2 slices cheese
Mayo
2 slices tomato

D-(6pm)Chicken Fajita w/onion, peppers, sour cream, salsa
20 to 30 chips and salsa
few bites rice

SN-(8:30 -9pm)
2 bowls corn flakes
1/4 watermelon

WT= 244
Got on the scales this morning cause I'm feeling swelled and bloated. WHOA! 10 pounds in 3 days. I'm sure MOST of it is water. I've even had a head ache from all the bloat. Going to lay off the salt for a few days.

That PM snack was a bad idea. I just kept eating. SHOOT!!!!!! Tomorrow is another day.

07-06-09 Monday

B-2 coffee AS HC
1 slice dill bread

L- 2 Healthy Life LC bread
1 slice turkey ham
1 slice cheese
mayo
2 slices tomato

D- 2 plates spaghetti w/meat sauce
1 slice garlic bread

SN-1 hershey choc bar
1/4 small watermelon

07-05-09 Sunday

B- 2 coffee AS HC
2 healthy life bread
1 egg w/peanut butter & sf syrup
1 sausage patty
2 hotdogs

L-2 ears corn
2 tomatoes
2 bowls cereal
1 healthy life toast w/butter

D-6 oz pork steak
2 ears corn w/butter

SN-1/2 watermelon
2 cookies

07-04-09 Saturday

Have a safe and
Happy 4th of July
!


B-1 Coffee AS HC
pot casserole
4 oz pork steak
1 ear corn

L-chicken noodles
mashed pot
1/2 cheeseburger
baked beans
tomatoe slices
pickles
2 strawberry cake pieces

D-pot casserole
4 oz pork steak w/catchup
1 ear corn w/butter

Sn-hershey choc bar

WT-234

07-03-09 Friday -Home today

B- 1 coffee HC AS
3 healthy life toast w/butter
1/2 small watermelon

L-1 Hershey bar (low sugar)
2 small ears corn w/butter

D-pork steak w/bbq sauce
pot casserole
2 small ears corn w/butter

SN-3 SF sour candy balls, 2 SF Popsicle
1 bowl cereal (corn flakes), 1 cup milk w/2 cookies

Had a rough eating night. I just wanted to eat and eat tonight. I'll pay for it tomorrow on the scales I'm sure. I should of just went to bed.
O'well tomorrow is another day.

07-02-09 Thursday

B- 1/2 c coffee HC AS
2 healthy life toast w/butter

L- 1 healthy life LC bread
1 cheese polish sausage
1 small order fries

D- Teriayki Chicken w/ cabbage
3 crab Rangoon
4 oz steak w/catchup
pepper steak
3 shrimp
small amount of mashed pot and gravy
6 small wedges of pineapple
4 wedges of an orange

07-01-09 Wednesday

B- 2 coffee AS HC
1 Thomas light English muffin w/cream cheese SF jelly

L- 20 grapes
1 healthy life bread, 1 slice turkey ham, 1 slice provolone cheese

D- 3 healthy life bread, homemade hamburger BBQ w/onions
4 (very small) ears of corn w/butter

Sn-2 chocolate cookies
1/4 small watermelon, 1 Hershey chocolate bar

WT=231

Sorry folks, I just haven't had a lot to say lately.

06-30-09 Tuesday

B- 2 coffee AS HC
2 Healthy life toast w/cream cheese SF jelly

L- Small order fries (didn't eat them all)

D- 4 hot dogs
1/4 small watermelon

Sn-4 chocolate cookies
20 grapes

WT=230

06-29-09 Monday

B-2 coffee as hc

L- 2 healthy life LC bread
2 turkey slices
1 slice cheese

D- 2 healthy life LC bread
1 egg, splash HC
Sugar free syrup
1 sausage patty

sn-20 grapes

06-28-09 Sunday

B- 2 healthy life toast w/butter
1/2 glass OJ

L-1 glass milk

D- 1 small plate spaghetti
1 sm piece cherry pie

06-27-09 Saturday

B- 1/2 c coffee hc as

L-small bowl spaghetti

D- 2 small bowls spaghetti
small piece cherry pie

06-26-09 Friday

B- 1 sausage biscuit w/cheese
2 hashbrowns
1 coffee, half & half as

L-fiddlefaddle

D- 1 plate of spaghetti w/meat sauce

06-25-09 Thursday

B-2 coffee hc as
1 everything bagel w/cream cheese

L-none

D- Salad w/ranch, egg, cheese, cukes, bacon, spinach, onion
1 baked pot w/sour cream, butter
2 biscuits w/butter
2 oz steak

06-24-09 Wednesday

B-3/4 of a biscuit w/gravy

L-2 Healthy Life toast
1 egg, butter

D- small sq of Lasagna

Still running a fever today. I hope I'm better by tomorrow, I have to drive my Auntie back home to Arkansas.
I got on the scale yesterday at the doctors office and thought for sure they were wrong. They read 234 with all my clothes on. I usually weigh first thing in the morning with nothing on. So I hopped on the scale this morning and it was 229. I wish now I had been weighing everyday so I would know how much of this weight loss has come from me being sick. It almost scares me to see those numbers. Will I gain it all back when I start eating again? If so, I don't want to start eating. Mixed feelings. I'm not hungry much at all.

Update: My fever finally broke around noon today. I'm still tired, but I feel much better.

06-23-09 Tuesday

Still sick

B- None

L-None

D- 1 package of easy mac and cheese

SN- 2 c milk, few chips
6 oz of OJ

Went to the doctor today. She thinks the reason for the fever is infection. She put me on an antibiotic.

06-22-09 Monday

Sick today with a fever.
B- none

L- 1 graham cracker

D- 1/2 of a cold hot dog

SN- none

06-21-09 Sunday (Father's Day)

B- 1/2 of a sausage muffin
1/2 of a hashbrown

L- none

D- 1 chicken breast, 1 scoop mashed pot w/gravy, 1 scoop of cole slaw, 1 biscuit w/ butter and honey

SN- None

Started running a fever about 5pm. Not feeling well at all.

06-20-09 Saturday (our Relay for life)

B- none

L- 4 bites of a cheeseburger

D-2 hotdogs on buns
few chips

It was SOOO hot today and I was so busy with the set up for our Relay for life. I didn't eat much.
Did lots of walking and everything went great.

06-19-09 Friday

B- 2 coffee AS CO HC

L- left over funnel cake

D-(left over)
1 1/2 gyro

SN-none

06-18-09 Thursday - Chicago Trip

B- 2 coffee AS CO HC
Thomas English Muffin w/cream cheese jelly
1 cheese sausage muffin
2 hashbrowns

L- 2 slices healthy life bread
ham cheese
chips
1 corn

D- 1 Gyro and all the fixing
few fries w/catchup

Sn- 1/4 of a funnel cake

06-17-09 Wednesday

B- 2 coffee AS CO HC
1 thomas english muffin cream cheese & SF jelly

L- 2 healthy life LC bread
peanut butter & SF jelly

D-1 1/2 pork fritter w/ mustard
3 healthy life LC bread
Medley veggies w/cheese

SN- chips, milk

06-16-09 Tuesday

B-2 coffee HC AS CO
2 hot dogs

L- 2 polish sausage w/ 2 healthy life bread

D-chips
2 glasses milk

Sn- small milk shake

06-15-09 Monday

B-2 coffee AS HC CO
bowl cereal w/milk

L-ham sandwich on reg bread w/cheese
few chips, french onion dip

D- baked spaghetti
1 garlic bread
salad

Sn- chips

06-14-09 Sunday

B- 2 coffee HC AS CO

L-1 cheese polish sausage
1 slice healthy life bread

D-pork chop
fried taters w/catchup
baked beans
corn

SN-bowl cereal w/milk

06-13-09 Saturday

B- 2 coffee HC AS CO
1 sausage cheese biscuit
(rummage sales w/Auntie)

L-none

D-(aunties birthday party)
hot dog (no bun)
goulash
2-pot casserole
strawberries w/angle food cake, cool whip
1 small slice bday cake

SN- none

06-12-09 Friday

B- 2 coffee AS HC CO


L-2 Healthy life LC bread
2 slices ham
1 slice provolone
mayo

D- 2 chicken breast
cole slaw
few potato wedges
1/2 small bag M&Ms

SN-2 saltines
1 glass milk

My Aunt made it in. She will be here for 2 weeks. Plan is to just not worry about the diet right now. Try not to gain it all back in these 2 weeks. Sometimes to feed a bunch of people the cheapest easiest way is the carbs. Sad but true.
I will be keeping track, but will probably be posting when I can.

06-11-09 Thursday

B-2 coffee AS HC CO
Thomas Light English muffin w/cream cheese SF jelly

L-salad w/1 egg, cheese, bacon, cukes, 1000 island (forgot my dressing)

D-3 Healthy Life LC bread, eggs, peanut butter, SF syrup
1 1/2 sausage patty

SN- 1 c milk, 4 saltines w/butter

06-10-09 Wednesday

B- 2 coffee HC AS CO
3/4 of a 2 egg, cheese, celery omlette

L- salad w/1 egg, cheese, bacon, cukes, ranch

D-cabbage and Spaghetti squash mixed together
w/ no sugar added spaghetti sauce & meat (left overs)

SN- few peanuts
Thomas Light English muffin w/cream cheese SF jelly

WT=239

We had some of that left over 'spaghetti' tonight. We didn't have enough of the squash left so we added shredded cabbage to the squash. It was great. We have to watch are p's and q's now that we have to make a big payment to my son's college now that he lost his grant. I've been really worried about this. I know it will all work itself out, but I'm still worried. :( I may have to take on a 2nd job on the weekends. I'm just not looking forward to it. I already put in 50 hours a week with my job now. I'm going to try and put it out of my mind until after my Aunt leaves......Oh, I forgot to tell you guys...

My Aunt is FINALLY coming home. She will be in Friday. YEAH!!! I can't wait. She is going to stay for 2 weeks and then I will take her back home (Arkansas). So I may be a little slow on the updating.
I may have to just post some pictures......maybe

06-09-09 Tuesday

B=2 Coffee HC AS
2 eggs, cheese, 1 stalk celery

L= chicken fajita (no wraps)
chicken, onion, peppers, salsa, sour cream
few chips w/salsa

D= Spaghetti squash w/no sugar added spaghetti sauce, hamburger, onion, peppers
1 stalk celery w/PB

SN- will edit later if I have one

WT=239

06-08-09 Monday

B- 2 coffee HC AS [3]
2 eggs w/1oz cheese cooked in butter [3]

L- grilled chicken Caesar salad from Wendy's [20]

D 2 servings chicken medley [15]
1/2 c chow mein noodles [18]

SN - 1 carb smart ice cream bar [5]
-----------------------------
1 glass milk, 4 saltines w/butter

[64 total carbs today before the milk and saltines]
At work on Friday our boss sent out an email saying we had someone take our gift cards that we had been giving away as an incentive program to our clients. The email said that they had ran the card numbers and are intending to prosecute unless the person came forward today by noon. I was really hoping it was someone that I didn't know. It turns out that a girl that I talk to quite a lot was walked out by HR today. It made me sad. You think you know someone and really you don't. I don't know what is going to happen to her. She went through an awful divorce about a year ago and is now remarried. What will she tell her new husband? It really makes you wonder what is going through someones head sometimes.

Diet wise, I'm still struggling to hold on. I've never been very good at limiting my intake of food. I look at other blogs and wonder how in the world they do that. Am I just too centered around food? Maybe. But I don't know how to make it different. I tried to add more veggies today. I haven't been doing very well with the veggies lately.

06-07-09 Sunday

B=2 coffee HC AS
1 Healthy life bread, 1 egg, peanut butter, SF syrup
1 sausage patty

L- 1 cheese polish sausage
1 healthy life LC bread
chips
1 glass milk

D-Few nacho chips w/cheese
6 oz round steak
1/2 c mashed potato w/ mushroom soup as gravy
3/4 c corn

SN- med strawberry shake

06-06-09 Saturday

B- 2 coffee AS HC
2 hotdogs w/catchup

L-3 slices healthy life bread
peanut butter
sf jelly

sn- 4 saltines w/butter

D- 2 slices healthy life bread w/ egg, peanut butter, SF syrup
1 sausage patty

Sn-1 SF ice cream bar, 1 SF popcycle, chips, 2 glasses milk

Today was my Mom's birthday. She would have been 81 today. We lost her in August 2007 to lung cancer. I miss her more than I ever thought I would. I tried really hard not to let it bother me so much. But at the end of the day, when all the work was done, it sunk in. I caved and went to get chips and milk. They didn't make me feel better. I need to work on dealing with the mental pain and not turning to food to try to snuff out the emotional burn from within.

This morning (6-7-09 Sunday) I feel remorse over turning toward food for comfort. I'm such an addict.

06-05-09 Friday

B-2 coffee AS HC
2 hotdogs w/catchup

L-walmart chicken
8 potatoe wedges

D-cabbage w/teriaki chicken
4 crab rangoons
med salad w/lettuce cheese bacon egg onion tomato ranch
6 oz steak w/catchup
2 ribs

Sn-none

WT=241

06-04-09 Thursday

B- 2 coffee HC AS
2 hotdogs w/catchup

L-4 slices summer sausage
4 slice off an 8 oz block of cheese

SN-atkins shake

D-2 cheese polish sausage
2 healthy life LC bread
15 nacho chips w/cheese

SN-4 saltines w/butter

WT=239

06-03-09 Wednesday

B- 2 coffee HC AS
2 hot dogs w/catchup

L- small salad
w/4 strawberries, walnuts, sunflower seeds, oil & vinegar w/a lil sweetener
1 diet coke

SN- EAS LC shake

D-3 eggs
3 Healthy Life toast w/butter
1/4 of a polish sausage
1 diet coke

SN-1 Russell Stovers SF toffee
4 saltines w/butter
1 cup milk
1 diet coke

WT=239

I'm finally having that feeling of being in control. I was hungry today after lunch and went to the snack machine. I wanted some nuts. They had honey roasted peanuts. I was scared to even try them for fear that it would get my cravings roaring again.
My stress level has been running about a 9+ the last few days. My son lost some of his grant for his schooling. My siblings are not getting along right now. I'm trying my best just to stay out of that. I don't want to be drug into any squabble. It's hard when your all so close. I love them all and can see all sides of the issues. I've had the feeling of just wanting to go get a bag of chips and just zone out. But I haven't. I don't really know why I'm feeling so strong. It doesn't make any sense to me. Other than the fact that I'm the kind of person who falls apart AFTER the crisis is over and usually not during.

06-02-09 Tuesday

B- 2 coffee HC AS
2 hot dogs w/catchup

L- 2 slices summer sausage
2 slices cheese
1 diet coke

Sn- 1 Atkins shakes

D- 2 cheese polish sausage
2 Healthy life LC bread

Sn-1 healthy life LC bread w/peanut butter, SF jelly

Wt-239

06-01-09 Monday

B-2 coffee HC AS
2 hotdogs w/ catchup

L-2 slices of summer sausage
2 slices of cheese
few pork rinds

SN-1 scoop protein powder, 8 oz water

D-1 pork steak w/catchup
cauliflower w/ onion, butter, french onion dip
2 hot dogs

SN-? I will update if I have one.

Wt=240

I got a call today from my son. He got a small pell grant last year to help out with some of his school expenses. His counselor called him in and he made too much money last year so he will NOT be getting it this year. Ok, I am SOOOOoo blown away. I can't believe this. So he is going to work everyday at 5am getting off at 12 to 12:30 then going to school at 2:15pm and has classes until 10:15pm EVERYDAY!!! So he is working his tale off and now he is being punished for it. How could this be. The kids who are just going to school and not working at all are getting the pell grants. It's not like he is making a lot of money, he is working for a lumber yard. He is paying his own rent, his own bills plus going to school. We (Hubby and I) are already making a good size payment to the school for the amount that was not covered by loans and grants. GRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!! It sure feels like he is being punished for working so hard.

05-31-09 Sunday

B-2 coffee HC AS
2 eggs/ cheese/ celery, omelet
2 Healthy life toast w/butter

L-2 Healthy life bread w/1 egg, peanut butter, SF syrup
1 sausage patty
4 strawberries
1 tub SF chocolate pudding
1 diet coke

D-sauteed cabbage w/no sugar added spaghetti sauce, hamburger meat, onions, green peppers

SN-1 oz walnuts
1 hotdog
1 russell stover sf toffee

WT=239

I don't know why it works this way but when I go off my eating plan then try to go back on, I have no clue what to eat. Nothing sounds good. I'm craving everything I shouldn't have. I just keep wanting something, but don't know what. I sit and wonder what I can have and what I can't. Now, I've been low carbing on and off for years. Why is it when you go off plan you have these feelings? It is SOOOOOoooo easy to slip back to my old self. The one that just grabs a bag of chips or a snack from the vending machine when I'm hungry and tired. The old self that weighed over 300 pounds. (That last part, I keep reminding myself about, I don't want to be that old self ever again.)

Little insight here:
I have a bad habit of rewarding myself for doing things I don't want to do.

**I have to get up and go to work after only sleeping 2 hours, it's okay I can have a McDonalds sausage muffin or a bagel w/cream cheese.
**I have to mow the grass after working 10 hours and only sleeping 2 hours last night, it's okay, I can have a bag of chips.
**I have to clean the kitchen or do laundry after working 10 hours and only sleeping 2 hours last night, and push mowing the grass for 3 hours (it got dark and I had to stop), it's okay, I can have a milk shake for working so hard.
etc, etc, etc........

I HAVE TO STOP THIS, or find new ways to motivate myself that isn't so self destructive. It also has to be an immediate reward. Not something that I will 'say' I will do for myself or 'say' that I will buy myself. I'm a now kind of girl. Any suggestions?????

05-30-09 Saturday

B- 2 coffee AS HC CO
4" polish sausage
3 scrambled eggs w/HC cooked in the Sausage grease
3 Healthy Life toast w/butter SF jelly

L- 2 Healthy Life bread
2 hot dogs
10 strawberries
1 cup milk

SN-1 healthy life bread
peanut butter & SF jelly
2 diet cokes

D-Hamburger meat w/lettuce, tomatoes, onion, sour cream, salsa, cheese
(only 1/2 a bowl of this)
2 diet cokes

This weekend I decided would be a little more relaxed than last weekend. Last weekend I cleaned my kitchen. I took all the pictures off the walls, everything from on top my Fridge, freezer and cabinets. I washed down all the walls, cabinets and the ceiling(yes, the ceiling). We bought a new rug and laid it down, then put eveything back together again. We mowed not only our property but my in-laws as well. We also decorated the graves for Memorial Day. We also celebrated my Mom-in-laws birthday on Saturday. :-)

Today I did general house cleaning. My son and I went through some of the boxes he had in his room from when he moved. Took a nap, planted some flowers and did a little yard work. It's 10:30pm and we just had dinner. So it was a little more relaxed but still busy.

05-29-09 Friday

B- 2 coffee HC AS CO
1 beef and cheese stick

L- 1 plate at the Chinese restaurant
3 crab rangoons, Teriyaki chicken, 3 onion rings, 1 chicken nugget, 2 cheese sticks, sweet n sour chicken no sauce, 2 donut thingies.

D- 1 Plate at the truck stop buffet
noodles w/mashed potatoes, 1 chicken breast, 8 shrimp, corn, 1 1/2 biscuit w/ butter

SN- Hubby and I split a banana split

05-28-09 Thursday

B-1 coffee HC AS
1 bagel w/cream cheese

L- 1 small fries

D-1 bagel w/cream cheese
4 hotdogs w/healthy life bread
small bag chips

SN-1 strawberry milkshake

WT=?

05-27-09 Wednesday

B-2 coffee

L- 2 Healthy Life bread
peanut butter
SF Jelly
small bag doritos
1 kitkat bar

D- chuck steak w/ catchup
cauliflower w/ sour cream and butter

SN- chips

WT=238

05-26-09 Tuesday

B-2 coffee HC AS

L-3 crab rangoons
4 onion rings
general chicken


D-2 healthy life bread
beef bbq
corn curls
milk

SN-choc covered peanuts

WT=?

05-25-09 Monday ~Memorial Day~

It is the
VETERAN,
not the preacher,
who has given us freedom of religion.

It is
the VETERAN,
not the reporter,
who has given us freedom of the press.

It is
the VETERAN,
not the poet,
who has given us freedom of speech.

It is
the VETERAN,
not the campus organizer,
who has given us freedom to assemble.


It is
the VETERAN,
not the lawyer,
who has given us the right to a fair trial.



It is
the VETERAN,
not the politician,
Who has given us the right to vote.






It is the
VETERAN who
salutes the Flag,




It is
the
VETERAN
who serves
under the Flag,


ETERNAL
REST GRANT THEM O LORD, AND LET PERPETUAL LIGHT SHINE UPON
THEM.

We can be very
proud of our young men and women in the service no matter where they serve.


God
Bless them all!!!

Makes you proud to be an AMERICAN!!!!

B-2 coffee HC AS

L-chips / milk

D-2 double cheeseburgers
fries

SN-chips

WT=?