I'm posting this from work on my lunch hour. I usually don't as I know big brother is always watching. But I'm to the point that I just don't care. I feel out of control. Like I'm going through a sort of depression. My food is out of control. I keep feeding myself to make myself feel better. (It's not working, but I keep doing it anyway). It's like trying to make a child feel better with a sucker, but I'm not feeling better.
Part of it is worry over losing my job and not being able to pay for my son's schooling. Part of it is the two year anniversary of my Mom's death coming up (I miss her sooooooo much). Part of it is not getting a new job that I applied for. And Part of it is.........I don't know. I feel my insides shaking and I don't know what to do about it. I've tried to calm it with my normal crutch (food).
I hope this will pass soon. I don't know what to do about it. I'm keeping myself busy with chores and work. Trying to get my mind calmed and not thinking about it. But no matter what I do, it's there.
Thanks for listening. This has been affecting me for a while now. Maybe just getting it off my chest will help.