05-29-09 Friday

B- 2 coffee HC AS CO
1 beef and cheese stick

L- 1 plate at the Chinese restaurant
3 crab rangoons, Teriyaki chicken, 3 onion rings, 1 chicken nugget, 2 cheese sticks, sweet n sour chicken no sauce, 2 donut thingies.

D- 1 Plate at the truck stop buffet
noodles w/mashed potatoes, 1 chicken breast, 8 shrimp, corn, 1 1/2 biscuit w/ butter

SN- Hubby and I split a banana split


Harry said...


Any insight as to why things are feeling so difficult lately? I know you've been on and off program for awhile now. I'm sure you've been reflecting on the reasons why. Just curious - but don't mean to pry. Don't feel compelled to answer if you're not comfortable.

Do you have any go-to plan that's helped you refocus or regroup in the past?

I don't mean to bug or pressure you. I just know how I feel when I'm stuck in a kind of middle ground/purgatory - not completely destroying myself but not really trying to save myself. It's a tough spot.

I'm rooting for you and would be willing to try to help - if you can think of a way.

Please take good care. I hope you and your hubby have a good weekend. :-)

PS - Are you still "mowercizing"?

Harry said...

PPS - Did you decide to try the chromium? I've been taking it for the past few weeks.

Overall, I'm feeling a bit better than usual. Though I'm not sure how much of that is due to the St. John's Wort.

I've had a few rough days but those were based on negative occurrences in my life. I don't think there's any remedy for that. :-)

NewVision said...

"not completely destroying myself but not really trying to save myself"You've hit the nail right on the head with this statement. That is exactly how I feel. (feeling a little like I'm leaning toward the destroying part here though)

Please don't ever feel like you are pressuring me. I know its just friendly encouragement and I thank you for that.

Sometimes I feel like I can't be totally focused on more than one thing at a time. Not quite sure how to explain it. I will jump on the scale, if I see it moving up than I'm watching my diet a little more closely for a few days. I'm trying to not go back into the 240's so I don't totally sabotage everything I worked so hard for. I figure if I can do that, then when I'm ready to refocus on my diet I won't have lost all.

Mainly being on plan or off has just depended on how much time I have to plan and follow thru with those plans. Sad but true. :(

I'm still Mowercizing, for sure. I've been trying to keep myself VERY physically active. :)

I haven't decided on the chromium. My sister has been encouraging me to take the St. John's Wart. She takes it and swears by it. My emotions have settled down some. Not nearly as bad as a few weeks ago. (REALLY BAD at that time, thought I was really losing it)

Thanks for your comment Harry. It has helped more than you know. :)
Your a great friend. Thanks for that.