B-2 coffee HC AS
2 eggs/ cheese/ celery, omelet
2 Healthy life toast w/butter
L-2 Healthy life bread w/1 egg, peanut butter, SF syrup
1 sausage patty
1 tub SF chocolate pudding
1 diet coke
D-sauteed cabbage w/no sugar added spaghetti sauce, hamburger meat, onions, green peppers
SN-1 oz walnuts
1 russell stover sf toffee
I don't know why it works this way but when I go off my eating plan then try to go back on, I have no clue what to eat. Nothing sounds good. I'm craving everything I shouldn't have. I just keep wanting something, but don't know what. I sit and wonder what I can have and what I can't. Now, I've been low carbing on and off for years. Why is it when you go off plan you have these feelings? It is SOOOOOoooo easy to slip back to my old self. The one that just grabs a bag of chips or a snack from the vending machine when I'm hungry and tired. The old self that weighed over 300 pounds. (That last part, I keep reminding myself about, I don't want to be that old self ever again.)
Little insight here:
I have a bad habit of rewarding myself for doing things I don't want to do.
**I have to get up and go to work after only sleeping 2 hours, it's okay I can have a McDonalds sausage muffin or a bagel w/cream cheese.
**I have to mow the grass after working 10 hours and only sleeping 2 hours last night, it's okay, I can have a bag of chips.
**I have to clean the kitchen or do laundry after working 10 hours and only sleeping 2 hours last night, and push mowing the grass for 3 hours (it got dark and I had to stop), it's okay, I can have a milk shake for working so hard.
etc, etc, etc........
I HAVE TO STOP THIS, or find new ways to motivate myself that isn't so self destructive. It also has to be an immediate reward. Not something that I will 'say' I will do for myself or 'say' that I will buy myself. I'm a now kind of girl. Any suggestions?????