B-2 c coffee HC CO AS
L-1 c spaghetti squash
1 c No Sugar added spaghetti sauce w/hamburger meat, onion, green peppers
SN- 8 Ritz w/ 1 oz cheese w/ 1 T butter
2 SF popcycles
8 pickles spears
D-2 Health Life LC bread
1 1/2 egg w/ half half (french toast)
1 t. peanut butter
SF Smuckers Syrup
4 hot dogs w / 1 carb catchup
SN-2 hot dogs /2 Health Life LC bread
Sleep =3 (range 0 - 10)
Didn't sleep well last night. Up and down a lot. Woke hot, woke stuffy, woke for no reason at all. Hoping for a nap this afternoon, we will see. Surprisingly I don't feel groggy or tired this morning.
Mood =8 (range 0 - 10)
Feeling optimistic this morning. I'm rethinking this WOE (way of Eating). Should I just go with how the diet has been going? I've just been maintaining, going up a few then down a few. Or should I kick it up a notch? As you can see from my past few weeks (actually thru December as well) I have not been too clean with my eating. I never have been able to do this cleanly. But I figured as long as the scale continued to move down than I was ok with that.
So today I'm asking myself:
With EVERY EVERY EVERY change I've made (and will make) I always ask myself "Is this something I can do for the REST of my life?" If the answer is yes I move on, if not I figure out another road to take. Now, my loss has been really slow because of this, but I know when I get to my goal, I will know how to stay there......
What change am I willing to make for the rest of my life?????????
I don't have an answer for you this morning. I have a few thing rolling around in my head.
1st struggle: Feeling like I can NEVER have the foods I love again or that I can't enjoy family outings and get togethers...
Possible answer: Giving myself permission to go off 1 (possible 2) times a month. This way I have something to look forward to. Also I think that will help with the just going off when ever I feel like it. Hubby and I were doing this in August and Sept. and it seems to really work. I could resist unexpected goodies knowing I could have what I REALLY wanted on such and such date or time.
2nd struggle: cravings
Possible answer: Same as above
3rd Struggle: Dips in my blood sugar....I need to find a carb that will not kick in the cravings. I've been using Ritz crackers for this. They don't (or at least I don't think they do) cause me to crave. Using cheese with it for the protein. They are really easy to have at work, they don't go bad and are easy to just pop in my mouth and go on....We are NOT allowed to have ANY food in clinic...The bosses have allowed me to have a draw for quick access.
Possible answer: I really don't have one...I just feel guilty when I have the Ritz.... 5 crackers are 10 carbs each. Guess I should just get over the guilt and realize that I'm not doing it to cheat. It is a have to thing. We never know how busy clinic will be from day to day. So I try to adjust my insulin as to the day I THINK I will have. (I'm working with my doctor on this) Some days I enter data into the computer. Which those days need more insulin as I'm sitting. Sometime I will get pulled into clinic on the days I have planned to sit.
What is your suggestions for me?????? Do you have any?????
.....................................I will return later today to add in menu...................................................